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May 8, 2020
3:00 p.m. – I’m back at it this weekend for another round of chemo. This is my “even” round, which is a different chemo cocktail than the “odd” rounds. Of course, it had to fall on Mother’s Day weekend, so if you think about it, please drop my wife a note and wish her well. I already gave the boys a little pep talk about it.
I’m at the point now where I now know what to expect when I come in, so I am able to plan a little better. I have numerous work and reading goals I want to knock out over the next 5 days, as well as some writing I want to do, so hopefully the chemo brain won’t be too bad.
I also want to spend some time in prayer this weekend. Checking in today (right next to the room I spent a month in initially), I am once again reminded of Philippians 4:
do not be anxious about anything, but in everything by prayer and supplication with thanksgiving let your requests be made known to God. And the peace of God, which surpasses all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus.
I need a fresh reminder of the peace of God. Others I know need a fresh reminder of the peace of God. I need my heart and mind guarded in and through Jesus. Others I know need to be reminded to make their appeal God in Jesus to guard, hearts and mind especially now.
I’m hoping to simply spend time with three Psalms: Psalm 27, 71 (CBR), and 91. I want to continue to make sure all my fears and anxieties about Covid, about cancer, about medical bills, about a new house, about my future, about my family, about the cares and concerns for all my black brothers and sisters right now, are first being brought before God. I need to know his peace afresh right now, before I can ever hope to encourage others with the peace of God.
So I hope to simply remind myself of who God through these Psalms. That I can call on Him in times of distress in Psalm 27, while remembering why He is faithful and reliable.
The LORD is my light and my salvation; whom shall I fear? The LORD is the stronghold of my life; of whom shall I be afraid?
That I can again reassure myself that God is not only protecting His people, but protecting me in Psalm 91.
I will say to the LORD, “My refuge and my fortress, my God, in whom I trust.” For he will deliver you from the snare of the fowler and from the deadly pestilence.
That when I’m feeling fatigued and weak from the chemo this weekend and beyond, my appeal to God from Psalm 71 is, “forsake me not when my strength is spent (9).”
O God, be not far from me; O my God, make haste to help me!
Sorry for the long radio silence, but I hope to keep everyone abreast more this weekend with everything going on.