August 17, 2020
3:30 p.m. – A few prayer requests for the coming week:
- Last Thursday, I had a bone marrow biopsy, and ever since then, I’ve been experiencing some bleeding issues. It was intense at first, and has subsided some over the weekend. I was starting to feel better after my last round of chemo ended 3 weeks ago, but these bleeding issues have caused me to feel like my hemoglobin has dropped significantly because of it. I would appreciate any prayer towards this ceasing, and the healing of my digestive track.
- As I have lived with this for the past 6 months, I am beginning to understand the pull to turn inward more. To be honest, it easy to avoid this pull at first, but now I understand more why people do so…I just hadn’t lived long with it. I want to write more about it, but it is definitely something I am struggling with right now, especially as it pertains to things surrounding relationships and work. It is a borderline depression, but right now, it feels more like a marginalization. I’m not wrestling with things of assurance, or my identity in Christ, but the “all things” in Philippians 3. I’m discovering this is a painful onion that is being pulled apart in my life, and I’m really struggling with it right now. Just pray that this wouldn’t turn me inward. Pray that this would continue to let me gain more of Christ, and count “as rubbish” those things that need to be peeled away.