How much larger your life would be if your self could become smaller in it. – G.K. Chesterton in Orthodoxy
Following God’s lead is always good, but never safe. When you commit your life to his, and commit yourself to do whatever God tells you to do, and to go wherever God tells you to go, you inevitably experience ups and downs, highs and lows. 2020 has certainly been the hardest and most interesting and most blessed year the Murphy’s have experienced in a long time, and it’s not even halfway over yet! It has filled us with fear and excitement (Cancer, Covid, and a new Crib); misunderstanding and frustration; laughter and tears. We have experienced moments of great desperation and great deliverance, as well as grief and glory. God’s Spirit and God’s truth have afflicted us in our comfort, and comforted us in our affliction. As a result, God and his gospel have become more real and relevant to us than ever before. We’ve never felt so dependant on him. He’s never been so big. We’ve never been so small. The idea that Jesus plus nothing equals everything ceased being simply a cognitive truth for us, and become our functional lifeline.
Interestingly, the world would have us to believe that the bigger we get, and the better we feel about ourselves, the freer we become. But what we find in the gospel is just the opposite. The gospel is good news for losers, not winners. It’s for those who long to be freed from the slavery of believing that all of their significance, meaning, purpose, and security depend on their ability to “become a better you.” The gospel tells us that weakness precedes usefulness; that, in fact, the smaller you get, the freer you will be. Nothing makes you more aware of your smallness than pain and hardship. The trials and tribulations of 2020 so far have helped both Keri and I to recover a glorious sense of God’s size and sovereignty.
I thank God for the blessed freedom the gospel brings, good news which reminds me everyday that God is God, and I am not; that in the person of Jesus Christ, God has already secured for me what I could never secure for myself.
Happy Moving Day!